2014年月尾痛苦的回忆...

2014年月尾12月1日，是我痛苦的回忆因为自己最爱的父亲得到癌症。而我真的很难过才会回来这个blogger写下自己的记录。我完全没有离开这个blogger也打算把这里当作是以往的记录。父亲重病在身，而我工作飘浮不当又不会自力更生让我这个笨蛋雪上加霜。

其实父亲这一路走来非常艰辛，我也是父亲和家人的负担没有尽到做女儿责任也没有回报给父亲。我好难过失望也不想他就这样突然离开我，因为我真的不知道怎么办我也知道他年岁以高是必定要走人生必要走的路。可是我很爱父亲很爱他希望他能永远在我身边不分离，但是这种想法是非常自私无理取闹的。我很惊讶父亲也跟过世母亲一样突如其来一场病就会随时痛失一切很懊悔和没有任何时间来后悔。

就像一个电影“上帝请给我多一点时间”那样，虽然我不信神但是我喜欢这关于人到最后发现后悔的触感，情感，焦急，复杂的感情电影内容，其实都是发生在每个人的身上。人生有长有短，未来或以后发生什么事情都未知也要时刻都要好好爱自己父母，因为生命是无常的也随时会突然就跟你说再见。没有停留也没有任何机会给你补偿。

现在的我心情郁闷也有后悔以前浪费不少时间，我也有想过不要做长期的电脑工作换个工作环境所以选择手作，但是手作收入不稳定自己吃自己，好处是可以学会缝缝补补和自己做一些自己喜欢做的事情算是欣慰。

我年纪已经不小而且还不会养活自己还连累别人，是个失败的人...先不想未来而看眼现在的我...

謊言說多了就會變成真理?

我實在不明白，如今去科技page發現到處都有宗教人士利用科學來宣教說“這些早在我的經書已經有了，我的經書宗教是全能什麼都知道，它是一本知識書！”這樣自大又拿人家的心血和努力順手就拿完全不聞不問佔為己有。

這種行為跟打搶有什麼分別？完全不知道過程，不努力去發現，沒有去親身做等等態度實在讓我討厭，生氣和無奈。

生氣是因為人家的努力心血被這些信徒一句宗教完全不勞而獲拿走。
討厭是因為這回教越來越多信徒，而且這類型的信徒也是一樣增多。
無奈是因為宗教很霸道龐大所以很少人敢出面對抗。

這樣下去，世界上的信徒喜歡謊言，而謊言說多了就會變成真理？

手作不是屬於aunty的

今天看了emma給別人blogger的文章讓我再次回想過去做的包包和經歷。其實我之前也是像文章裡面的人一樣想法就是喜歡簡約風格和比較中性化的包包。

也許我看了不少韓國老外豐富色彩作品和買了自己喜歡美式拼布Katchwork書思維有一點點改變，買的顏色也沒有那麼黯淡和單調。

但是我對日式和簡約愛不但沒有減少反而增加，只是試想想假設簡單過度就會失去一些靈魂特色在裡面。

對我而言這個世界很多顏色，只要懂的運用和靈活性會產生不一樣的效果，而這個效果就是平時沒有人有的突破。

回想起以前在書局那邊看手作書籍時候，賣書的店員在整理手工書籍說這些都是aunty的作品很老土讓我印象深刻。

男性們對女性車出來的包包看法會不同而要求實在，不像女性那樣多變化可以搭配不少服裝外出那樣多(除了愛美不在意的男性外)。

我正在想如果要做符合大眾品味而賣包包，不如去百貨工廠參考回來再重新定義比較好。
如果一味跟外面賣的一樣而沒特色，大家都會買工廠生產的包包而不選擇你自己手工包。

以前讀設計老師有提過：“不要為了設計而設計”。如果做出要好看外又好用是最好的作品。
做個時尚包或者不同款式包也罷，只要有人欣賞就是一種鼓勵。

手作不是屬於aunty的，不同人品味欣賞也不同。
而且時尚和流行這東西是很難講的，有些時候一些毫不起眼的東西突然紅一陣，有些是流行回去以前復古的品味。

個人認為人穿搭和包包在一起的效果會不一樣，畢竟這種東西是抽象的。

最近一直做框架項鍊

我已經做3個款式的項鍊都是用雪糕棒弄的，雖然我個人是喜歡但是這個需要使用ABglue和gross保護漆導致我手嚴重難洗又黏外，還要不小心大量的有毒氣味...所以我做了蝴蝶項鍊後打算把用剩沒有用完的AB glue丟掉。因為真的很麻煩洗手，所以下次再購買時必須早早買2個罐子來安裝這A和B的黏液，使用的方法會方便很多只要攪出來就可以容易混合來凝固做透明模。

我的桌子真的很多東西很骯髒，真的很頭痛啊....要做完我那個到現在沒有完成的包包才收拾一下~

unknown quote

Steven Weinberg quote

Daniel Patrick Moynihan quote

Infinity0 quote

Lucretius Quote

Mark Twain Quote

Shelley Quote

George Carlin Quote

Freethinker histories quote

Caslespie Mckinney quote

Luis Bunuel quote

Ernest Hemingway quote

Napoleon Quote

The Arab Philosopher quote

這次是嘗試畫中東背景來配合一下這個阿拉伯心理學家的思想文句。

Ramen! Our spaghetti

  If they can, We can!
------------------------------------------
Our spaghetti
Who art in the colander
Hallowed be thy sauce
Thy serving come
Thy strands be wrung
On forks as they are on spoons
Give us this day our daily meatball
And forgive us our starchiness
As we forgive those who are starchy against us
And lead us not into Kraft parmesan
But deliver us from Chef Boyardee
For thine is the garlic
And the onion and the bay leaves
For ever and ever.

Ramen

Atheistic sayings

我一直想要畫關於atheist的quote或者想法圖，這次是畫其中一個老外給的quote而我覺得喜歡一些想法就隨意畫出來了。

 

Religion is regarded by the common people as true, by the wise as false, and by the rulers as useful. Lucius Annaeus Seneca,Roman philosopher and statesman 4 BC – AD 65

"Those who can make you believe in absurdities can also make you commit atrocities."Voltaire

"Every sensible man, every honorable man, must hold the Christian sect in horror."Voltaire

"Christianity is the most ridiculous, the most absurd and bloody religion that has ever infected the world."Voltaire

"Nothing can be more contrary to religion and the clergy than reason and common sense."Francois Marie Arouet "Voltaire",French author and playwright (1694-1778)

"The whole history of the Christian Church is a mixture of errors and violence."Johann Wolfgang von Goethe,German author (1749-1832)

"Religion is excellent stuff for keepingcommon people quiet."Napoleon Bonaparte

"It is easier to suppose that the universe has existed for all eternity than to conceive a being beyond its limits capable of creating it."Percy Bysshe Shelley, English poet (1792-1822)

"Our ignorance is God; what we know is science."Ingersoll

"With soap, baptism is a good thing."Ingersoll

"The clergy know that I know that they know that they do not know."Ingersoll

"Why should I allow that same God to tell me how to raise my kids, who drowned his own?"Ingersoll

The inspiration of the bible depends onthe ignorance of the person who reads it.Ingersoll

"As people become more intelligentthey care less for preachers and more for teachers."Robert Green Ingersoll,American politician and lecturer (1833-1899)

"It ain't the parts of the Bible that I can't understand that bother me, it is the parts that I do understand."Mark Twain

"A man is accepted into a church for what he believes and he is turned out for what he knows. "Mark Twain

Mr. Clemens was once asked whether he feared death. He said that he did not, in view of the fact that he had been dead for billions and billions of years before he was born, and had not suffered the slightest inconvenience from it.Samuel Clemens "Mark Twain",American author and humorist (1835-1910)

On Theology:"Is it not grotesque when the representatives of an antiquated myth-sorcery, who believes in trinity, angels, devils, hell, virgin-birth, bodily Ascension, making of water into wine, wine to blood, - when they want to impress us with their "science"? "Karlheinz Deschner, German writer (1924- )

On the Trinity:"For a "monotheistic" religionit should be sufficient with three gods."Arnulf Øverland

"What is there to be said about a Church which certainly promises its believers eternal salvation, but at the same time condemns the non-believers, all those who think differently, to an eternal torment in hell? - If that Church absolutely must talk about love, then it should do so very quietly."Arnulf Øverland, Norwegian poetand writer (1889-1968)

Religion is an insult to human dignity.With or without it you would havegood people doing good thingsand evil people doing evil things.But for good people to do evil things,that takes religion.Steven Weinberg

Everyone Is Entitled To Their Own Opinion's,But Not Their Own Facts.Daniel Patrick Moynihan

"The word god is for me nothing more than the expression and product of human weaknesses, the Bible a collection of honourable, but still primitive legends which are nevertheless pretty childish. No interpretation no matter how subtle can (for me) change this."Albert Einstein

"For me the Jewish religion like all others is an incarnation of the most childish superstitions. And the Jewish people to whom I gladly belong and with whose mentality I have a deep affinity have no different quality for me than all other people. As far as my experience goes, they are no better than other human groups, although they are protected from the worst cancers by a lack of power. Otherwise I cannot see anything 'chosen' about them."Albert Einstein

By the age of 12 Albert Einstein was questioningthe truth of many biblical stories:"The consequence was a positively fanatic [orgy of] freethinking coupled with the impression that youth is being deceived by the state through lies; it was a crushing impression"Albert Einstein

"Religion is all bunk."Thomas Edison

"I have never seen the slightest scientific proof of the religious ideas of heaven and hell, or of a God."Thomas Edison, American inventor (1847-1931)

Surely you do not believe in the gods. What's your argument? Where's your proof?Aristophanes

What can be asserted whithout evidence can also be dismissed whithout evidence.Christopher Hitchens

Absence of evidence is evidence of absence.Infinity0

The invisible and the non-existentlook very much alike.Delos McKown

Give a man a fish, and you'll feed him for a day;Give him a religion, and he'll starve to deathwhile praying for a fish.Unknown

Everyone starts out being an atheist.No one is born with belief in anything.Andy Rooney

Gods are fragile things; they may be killed by a whiff of science or a dose of common sense.Chapman Cohen

Men will never be free until the last king is strangled with the entrails of the last priest.Denis Diderot

Religion has actually convinced people that there's an invisible man living in the sky.George Carlin

Faith means not wanting to know what is true.Friedrich Nietzsche

Religions vary in their degree of idiocy,but I reject them all.Gene Roddenberry

A man full of faith is simply one who has lost the capacity for clear and realistic thought.Henry Mencken

Suppose we've chosen the wrong god.Every time we go to churchwe're just making him madder and madder.Homer Simpson

Prayer has no place in public school, just like facts have no place in organized religion.Superintendent Chalmers (The Simpsons)

Don't pray in my school,and I won't think in your church.Unknown

Religions are all alike foundedupon fables and mythologies.Thomas Jefferson

All religions are ancient monuments to superstition, ignorance and ferocity.Baron D'Holbach

People who don't like their beliefs being laughed at shouldn't have such funny beliefs.Brad Reddekopp

Philosophy is questions that may never be answered. Religion is answers that may never be questioned. Unknown

Two hands working can do morethan a thousand clasped in prayer.Unknown

An idea does not gain truth as it gains followers. Amanda bloom

The first requisite of the happiness of the people is the abolition of religion.Karl Marx

Religion is the opium of the masses.Karl Marx

Religion is not merely the opium of the masses,it's the cyanide.Tom Robbins

Religion is against women's right and freedom. In all societies women are oppressed by all religions. Taslima Nasrin

The bible and church have been the greatest stumbling block in the way of women's emancipation. Elizabeth C. Stanton

I prayed for freedom for twenty years, but received no answer until I prayed with my legs.Frederick Douglass (American statesman and former slave)

Every man thinks God is on his side.The rich and powerful know he is.Jean Anouilh


Organized religion is a sham and a crutch for weak-minded people who need strength in numbers.Jesse Ventura


Fear is the mother of all gods. Nature does all things spontaneously by herself without their meddling. Lucretius


Religious bondage shackles and debilitates the mind and unfits it for every noble enterprise.James Madison


All religions are pieced together out of elements which seem so at odds with reason that any intelligence laughs at them.Pierre Charron


I am against religion because it teaches us to be satisfied with not understand the world.Richard Dawkins